I wanted to tell you all my story, not for sympathy, but for those who think they are alone. We all suffer pain, and we all cope with it in our own way. The most trivial thing to you, could mean so much to someone else.
My name is Sam, or Samantha, whichever you prefer. I am currently living on my own, and attending college full time. For most of my life I have fought with depression and an anxiety disorder. There were times when the pain was so bad I could not leave my home for days or a week at a time. My best friend was murdered. After that life as I knew it just seemed to lose all meaning. I began cutting and contemplated suicide multiple times. I suffered panic attacks constantly. Around the same time this was occurring I had just come out as a bisexual. Many of my close friends abandoned me when I needed them the most. So when I felt at my lowest point I would flee to the Internet, because being alone with your thoughts can be dangerous. There are so many kind hearted people here who never judge you. They listened to me, let me vent all night if necessary, and saved my life numerous times. I am aware that I will be judged for writing this and I am perfectly fine with that. This isn’t for the critics, its for those who suffer in silence.
Please, (and I can’t stress this enough) do not try to fix everything yourself. Find solace in others. Whether it be a parent, friend, teacher, or stranger. You are never truly alone.
Some places I recommend
http://www.compassionpit.com/ < You can find me on here often in the forums under Lovelylost. Send me a private message if you want to talk to me personally or simply click on vent and start talking anonymously.
I hope you all find happiness.
